| Location | Leamington Spa |
| Age | 35 years |
| Cause of Death | Not Listed? |
| Date of Birth | 12/06/1965 |
| Date of Death | 06/09/2000 |
| Visitors | 432 since 07/10/2008 |
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My mum was the best mum anyone could ever wish for, she was kind, outgoing, bubbly, friendly, and very beautiful.
I always used to think what i would do if i ever lost her, and i came to the conclusion that i would soon follow, as i would not be able to cope, but i never expected it to happen so soon, i hoped my mum would be around forever, meet my children, and see me get married. My mum had quite a bad life, and went through alot of rough realtionships in her time, but we always stuck together along the way, we would hug each other, cry together, laugh together, and just be their for each other.
I put my mum through alot of stress in my teenage years, and their is nothing i regret more now, as i never got to tell her how sorry i am. No matter what my mum stood by me, and was always their.
The day mum was taken away from me, we both woke as normal, and sat downstairs having a cup of tea and a chat together, nothing untoward, mum was fine, i went to get ready, as it was my first day starting college, i was very nervous, but mum was their reassuring me everything would be fine, like she always did. When it was time to leave, we all got in the car (me, my mum, and stepdad), and dropped mum off at work, we said our goodbyes, and i gave her a kiss, i do not know why, but we waited in the car and watched her walk into work, we never usually do, but it felt right, she turned and waved before walking into the double doors, i never thought for one minute that would be the last time i saw my mum alive. At college, we had out induction lesson, then a break, whilst i was outside of the collge my headteacher approached me, and said my mum had been taken to hospital, i was really confused, and on the way their, everything was going through my mind but did not add up, we only dropped her off 1 hour ago. As we arrived at the hospital, in reception, several nurses rallied around me, and took me down a long corridor, which seemed to last a lifetime, we came to a brown door, which i opened expecting to see my mum,instead was an empty room and my stepdad, who was sobbing. I just collapsed on the floor hysterical, i just knew she was gone, i was uncontrolable, and several nurses tried to calm me down.
I wanted to see mum for the last time, and was took to the room where she was lying, as soon as the door opened i could see my mum, she looked so peaceful, and asleep, it all felt like a bad dream, i could not console myself. I sat by her bed, and was stroking her head for what seemed like hours, she was really cold, and the colour from her glowing cheeks had gone, thats when reality hit me, my mum was gone forever. For the next few weeks i was very confused, and still none the wiser of how mum had passed, but eventually we found out she died os Sudden Adult Death syndrome (SADS). To me it was no real reason, and was hard for me to get my head around, but it did not change the fact that mum was still gone.
Just to let you know mum, i think about you every single day, you are always on my mind, i miss you more than words can describe, and hope to see you again some day, i am sorry for things that happened after you had passed, but it was for the best, i am just glad you was not here to go through it all. Mum, you deserved so much better in life, and i am so sorry for the way i acted and treated you before you passed away, but after you passed, i am sure you have seen the reasons why i was this way, i know it was no excuse but what he did, destroyed my life. I love you always and forever, Goodnight, Godbless xxxxx
Happy Birthday Mum
Happy Birthday mum, just to let you know I am thinking of you today and always, god I remember before you died every year you would worry about your birthday and being another year older, but I am pretty sure it doesnt matter anymore because in heaven nothing changes, so your beauty and age stays the same. Ethan did great in his football tournament today he would have made u proud, but im guessing you know that already. So much has changed and so many things have happened, that I always think 'I wish I could ring my mum and tell her' but thats something I have to get used to. I may not have done many things u r proud of, but I am trying to do the best I can to support my family and be the best mum I can, and it all came from you and the way you brought me up. I love and appreciate everything you did for me while u was alive. I miss you more than life itself. until we meet again xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Aaaaw babe I really appreciate this, it is beautiful, you have such a kind heart, my mum would have probably judged you by first glance, as many of my family do, but I can honestly say I know my mum would have loved the inner you, and the fact that you look after me and our 2 boys so well. You have so much to be proud of, don't let anyone get u down or put you down, because you know when we close that door at home, all that really matters is me, you, Ethan and Preston. I love you with all my heart for eternity, you r my one and only always and forever xxxxxxxxxxx
Mum, not a day goes by with out me thinking 'what if?', maybe if I didn't treat you so badly, or hurt you so much things would have turned out differently, I hope ure at peace and have all the family you need around you. I just wish u could point me in the right direction some times in my life, or I could pick up the phone and speak to you. I miss our little chats by the patio doors, both with a cuppa and a fag, when things were ok between us all, times were great, I miss it so much. I would give anything to have one more day with you, I know someday my dreams will come true, and I hope u r waiting for me, cuz i could do with the biggest mummy squeeze in the world. Love you with all my heart, sleep dreams mum xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
I ddint know you or meet you in the flesh but i have a feeling i will meet you some day and i will have the chance to thankyou for creating such a wonderful daughter that i have the priviledge to have in my life and for this is thankyou from the bottom of my heart, even though ure gone ure memory lives on in emma and with my 2 little boys ure 2 grandsons and they have and will always be apart of you, they know who u are they look at pictures an visit ure grave with us saying its nanny lesley which was quite bizaree really when u was sooo young but from all of us including myself you will never be forgotten and for emma your memories you left her will always be in her heart and in her head.
Lesley you have to be the most beautiful angel in heaven......
You would be so proud of how much your little baby has turned into a kind, clever and beautiful woman and is just the most fantastic mum.
There is not a single day that goes by that I dont talk to my babies about their Aunty Lesley....... and make sure they are aware that you were a part of our lives before they were born and that they should know who that beautiful lady is in the picture in my front room!!
will love and miss you every day until i get to see you again
miss you soooooo much your baby sister Sara xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi mum, I am so sorry I have not been on here to speak to you in a while, a lot has been going on as you may know, I miss you so much it hurts, this year is going to be 10 years since you have gone, and the pain still feels so raw. Its the little things that always make me think of you, like when I am down and need a shoulder to cry on, or pick up the phone and have a chat. When your grandchildren ask about you, it makes me smile when I tell them how beautiful and kind hearted you were.
I am currently having counseling after all these years, to help get me through the traumas I have gone through in my life, and to help my family cope with me, and the way I am.
I try to explain the feelings I am going through, but no-one can understand until they have experienced what I have. So fingers crossed this will help us all.
I know you are watching over your grandchildren, they have had so many accidents, and come out perfectly fine and healthy, and I always put that down to you and Nan watching over them. I thank you so much for keeping them safe, I never realized how much responsibility it takes to having children, and how much you worry about them.
You would be so proud of Ethan, he is really clever at school, top of the class, he loves break dancing, and is always looking to achieve so much better. Preston is coming on really well, hes in Nursery and currently being assessed as he has a boisterous side to him, and is quite out of control, but if you could see him, he would make you melt, they both would, they are so gorgeous.
Thank you for everything you taught me out of life, I want to do well and am really enjoying my job as a receptionist, I have completed a lot of courses to help me move further, but at the moment, I am content with what I am doing, yeh the money isn't fantastic but it helps me provide for my family, and we get by.
I love and miss you more than I could ever describe, I wish I could show you how much, by a big cuddle and kiss, but unfortunately I will have to wait until we meet again. I hope you are waiting for me when the time comes, I dream about you now an again, and in all of my dreams it seems you are angry with me, and barely look at me, it plays on my mind all the time, it scares me at the thought of you not being there waiting.
Love you for ever and eternity.
Emma xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
9 years today :(
I can't believe it has been 9 years today, and the pain still feels so raw, you were my everything and i think about you everyday, i have been through alot of hard times since the day you was gone, and so wish i could just pick up the phone, or give you a hug, the only thing that keeps me going is the thought of me meeting you again one day. I tell my boys about you all the time and they will always know who you are, and what a great nanny you would have been. I love and miss you soo much, and hope your still around me, sweet dreams, love your one and only daughter xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
happy birthday to my beautiful sister lesley xxxxx
happy birthday to you,happy birthday to you,happy birthday dear lesley happy birthday to you love you with all my heart and ur still missed every day theres not a day goes by when i do not think of you and mum and i always look at your photo at the side of my bed and good night to you every night,i bet you are having fun up there today .... grandads proberly got the brandy out like he always did on celebrations hahaha.things have never been the same since you and mum went we all just dont seem to be as close anymore not like we all use to,you would be so proud of emma she is a fantastic mum to ethan and preston she tries so hard godbless her and she does a wonderful job she gives 100% i try and be here for her but at the mo its more like the other way round lol with all the problems im having but you proberly know that already from watching up above.i just wish you were stil here and mum i so desperatly dont know what to do anymore and would know if you were here you you would be here for me i love you so much les and miss not being able to talk to you i cant wait till the day we see each other again at least ur not suffering cause life down here is crap believe me it is i love you so much and say hello to everyone for me and come and see me again i miss you have a lovely day sweet heart be thinking of you and will light a candle for you takecare babe and give everyone a big kiss from me xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!
Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday to you, Happy Birthday dear mum, Happy birthday to you.
Have a good drink up there with the rest of them. Thinking of you always. Love you billions, Emma xxxxxxxxxx
Hello Mum
Hi mum, been thinking about you a lot lately with mothers day and everything, i came up the crem to see you, i had a little cry, it still feels like only yesterday. Well, things are looking up! me, Scott and the kids are great, and we are looking for a new house at the moment. I have just got a full time contract after 2 years, i cannot remember what its like to get holiday pay!! We went to see Kath and Matthew about 2 weeks ago, it was lovely to see them and reminisce about the times we went their, and the last time she saw you was when you fell off the chair at their BBQ, that was hilarious!! Ethan is doing really well at school, you would have been really proud of him, and Preston starts this year, hes so cute, they both are, i suppose I'm just modest!! i went to see the dreaded in laws a few weeks ago, and it would be fair to say nothings changed, they are still hard faced, and gullible to everything they have been told, but what can i say i never liked them that much anyway!! i will go now, and leave you at peace, thank you for all the happiness that has happened in my life since you have gone, it just proves i know you are looking down on me. Love you with all my heart xxxxxx Love from your one and only daughter (Bab as you would say!!) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hi mum, been thinking about you a lot lately with mothers day and everything, i came up the crem to see you, i had a little cry, it still feels like only yesterday. Well, things are looking up! me, Scott and the kids are great, and we are looking for a new house at the moment. I have just got a full time contract after 2 years, i cannot remember what its like to get holiday pay!! We went to see Kath and Matthew about 2 weeks ago, it was lovely to see them and reminisce about the times we went their, and the last time she saw you was when you fell off the chair at their BBQ, that was hilarious!! Ethan is doing really well at school, you would have been really proud of him, and Preston starts this year, hes so cute, they both are, i suppose I'm just modest!! i went to see the dreaded in laws a few weeks ago, and it would be fair to say nothings changed, they are still hard faced, and gullible to everything they have been told, but what can i say i never liked them that much anyway!! i will go now, and leave you at peace, thank you for all the happiness that has happened in my life since you have gone, it just proves i know you are looking down on me. Love you with all my heart xxxxxx Love from your one and only daughter (Bab as you would say!!) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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